God Deserves More Than spiritual Apathy, but sometimes that is what I offer
My focus is skewed. I am veering way off course and my view is muddled.
Odd how the pendulum of life swings, swaying towards utter contentment and disciplined life. Intentional living.
Then, a swing back. Not drastic enough to see at first.
It is thought that the smallest possible unit of measurement is 1 Angstrom. Smaller than a millimeter by 10 times. Difficult to measure. A life shift. It is subtle, imperceptible. We are dismayed when we realize that our ending point was the starting point we ran from.
That is where I find myself today. Countless tiny shifts invade life, a few larger ones. I don’t deal well with unfinished projects. Stalled possibilities.
What is spiritual indifference?
Even my relationship with God has been crowded into the back seat. Maybe not even that close.
I don’t want to be apathetic towards God. Where my pursuit for Him has become another thing on my list.
It pains me to say that.
Can you relate?
It is not acceptable for me to live life in pursuit of everything that is good, but nothing that has lasting rewards. To worry about bills, finishing paperwork, community with precious people.
Those are necessary parts of life, and they need to be done soon. Of course, need is relative.
What gnaws at me on a deeper level is the irritability of my soul.
A whisper reminding me that without God at the top of my list, nothing else matters.
How do you get out of spiritual dryness?
If He was slated to come tomorrow and knock on our door, would we give a care for checking email, Facebook, emptying the dishwasher, tidying the living room…
All those distractions that come in a supposed effort to “get ready” for Bible time? For God time?
I worry sometimes.
Why is it so easy to become pulled away from the life-giving, incomparable, sustaining bond with our Creator? And we trade that for what?
Imperfect faith doesn’t shock God
That is not what I want to live for. I fear that my life will become less than—a farce.
My words will be empty, without challenge. My example, the opposite of my hope.
God deserves more than apathy. We must always remember though, that all He asks of us? Is to come before him. Imperfect, incapable, and remember that His heart of full of love and compassion.
He gets us, so let us simply come.
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I can definitely relate, it’s very easy for everyday life to crowd out your eternal perspective. I encounter God best through nature, which is maybe why I love summer so much, because God’s fingerprints are everywhere, in the song of birds and the flowers and the deer grazing behind my house, things I can’t see as easily in the winter. Anyway, I like your closing thought and since this day is just beginning, that is what I will think about.
Kathleen, I relate best to God when I experience nature as well. I think when I go to the Smoky Mountains soon, it will be amazing
Christa,
This was beautiful. It was a gentle plea for us to remember what we do with God. “crowding him into the back seat.” It is such a Martha thing to do. And I don’t want to do it. And yet, I find myself like Paul, doing the very thing I despise. Thanks for the post.
Anne, so thankful for Paul’s character to be included in Scripture. He inspires me greatly, Thank you
I have been reminded of this often over the last several months. It’s not that I miss my Bible time in the morning, but is the remainder of my day what he wants of me? Is the busyness of the day ‘ours’ our mine? Good post.
Shelley, have you noticed that we can be “doing” the Bible stuff and yet it will just feel empty when we are too distracted? That has been my experience…
Thanks for this reminder Christa. I have allowed my own sorrow and frustration, along with a series of transitions in my life, to pull me away from Him, even though I know He will soothe my busted heart and smooth my transitions.
This one was for me…Thank you, little one.